Hope

Previously Written

          If Love is the heart of the soul, then hope is the blood that flows through it.  Hope, more than a word, a state of believing--feeling--that defines us as much as love.  Like love there is fragility in the strength of it.  It can grow from being as small as a mustard seed to an entity that encapsulates the soul.  We can not (nor should we try) to survive without it.  Trying to live without hope is a virtual death sentence.  It is like trying to live without eating--you can make it for a little while, but your body will start to shutdown, your health deteriorates.  Hope is food for the soul, it is one of the essentials that keeps our spirits fed.
     Hope is never lost (no matter what the situation).  We may forget that it exists, yet it burns deep within us.  Even if the flame is tiny, it will burn as long as we breathe.  We must continuously  feed our flames so that it can grow into a brilliant, incandescent fire that will fill us--consume us.  For when hope shines within our soul our spirit can not be crushed; our hearts can not be broken and our minds can not break.
     Never deny or neglect hope.  Never let anyone try to extinguish or dampen it.  Hold on to it; remember it; grow it; (true) hope will never lead you astray.  Keep your heads up lovelies!  Until another time I wish you love and happiness of the truest kind!
     ~Marissa  

Cloud Nine/Divorcee Dating Saga Part Six

     (Throwing on my Captain Obvious Cape) I am on cloud nine, my boyfriend is just--wonderful and he really does make me happy (as though you couldn't tell from my posts, right).  Hunny makes me want to sing at the top of my lungs and cheer from mountain tops a riotous chorus of elation.  The only thing that makes me sad is--we don't get to spend as much time together as we would like (#grownupproblems)!  It is so hard trying to coordinate two individual's work and social calendars!  Add to that the distance we live from each other and we get two days a week (if we are lucky) to spend together!  I really wish that I worked a more normal schedule or that we lived closer to each other because it would be so much easier for us to see each other, but wishing doesn't change the facts so--I blame HUNNY!
     I blame Hunny for making me miss him so much.  It is his fault that I want him around and I hate not having him with me to cuddle every night and kiss every morning!  I love that he tries to make every moment we do have together insanely lovely, no matter what we do, because that is endearing all on its own.  He makes sure that we do get to cram as much QT as we can in the few hours we do get together, though.  It means so much that this is important to him (it makes me feel treasured, see it is not hard at all, guys)!  I know they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but it also kinda saddens, too (like a lot)!  I mean SERIOUSLY!  I WANT MY HUNNY (*Insert foot stomping, whining, two year old tantrum, here*)!
     Even though the lack of Hunny and Bunny (his nickname for me, isn't it precious) QT makes me sad (miss him so much) the fact that we both try our best encourages me when it gets super difficult (and I also sleep in his shirt during those times).  Sometimes we may have to sacrifice some social engagements, rearrange our schedules but for me (and Hunny, too) it is worth it (he is so worth it)!  Hopefully it will get easier or something will change that will enable us to be together more.  Until then we have as much fun and make as many memories as we can!  As long as we still miss each other and cherish our time together I believe we are on the right track.
     Well enough sharing for one post!  Until another time I wish you all love and happiness of the truest kind!
    ~Marissa